I remember now, but I still have my doubts.
I think it's gonna be today.
Everybody came, but it's just not the same.
Why did it have to be today?
Now my chest is tight, no I am not all right.
It doesn't have to be this way.
Why does it have to be this way?

I don't know what's wrong.
It's like I'm too far gone.
It doesn't matter anyway.
Fear is in my heart.
Just when I stop it starts.
And I can never live this way.

Freedom is a cage.
No sun and too much rage.
I don't know how much I can take.
Push it down inside,
But it knows just where I hide.
I know that "normal" is hard to fake.
Bleeding into life.
It's like a thousand knives,
Are slowly turning me to this.
Why does it have to be like this?

I don't know what's wrong.
It's like I'm too far gone.
It doesn't matter anyway.
Fear is in my heart.
Just when I stop it starts.
And I can never live this way.

I don't know what's wrong.
It's like I'm too far gone.
It doesn't matter anyway.
Fear is in my heart.
Just when I stop it starts.
And I can never live this way.

I lost again today.

I don't know what's wrong.
It's like I'm too far gone.
It doesn't matter anyway.
Fear is in my heart.
Just when I stop it starts.
And I can never live this way.
Living with a curse.
Sometimes it's even worse.
It slowly kills me every day.
Something I despise is gonna take my life.
I guess I'll try again today.